20 Minds Late

Past, pretense and future hindsight dares you to pontificate on your escape, they’ll point if she caters to your fate, and ask whose burying the next round, and when do you return from delusion to find that you are twenty minds late? But you ask as if the answer lies in the knowing, when love lives in the dying, yet still you are young in the grey of years past to believe that your vision and my survival are dependent on each other, like a Teller bound to a story unfolding with the falling and rising of eye lids, opening revelations and shutting down imagination’s excesses, banished to the kingdom of Sleep, unchartered chapters of mystical and mortal men’s premature strides, running like percussion through dark forrest into the cycle of death, birth and bastardisation, where beginners and old masters are disowned and abandoned by the twisted night to be discovered by the creased morning of wall scaling daylight dreams, pressed into purposeful and pleasurable copulation, the greatest sex they ever had felt like dying and being born at the same time, and yet she never touched him, fifteen minds before he fell from her grace into your bed and out of my heart, transfigured into the maroon shadow that haunts our love’s memory.
We were merely the reflection of consequences put into place, tall before our eyes first met, unmatched in the first desire of seductive impression, and ten minds before I drank in the light of her archaic beauty, and with mine eyes seeing the glory, and ceasing the moment, painted her on the fragile canvas of my soul, I stole a solitary glance and whisper of her breath from the air we shared, inhaled deep into hungry lungs that devoured it like a secret to hide from evil relatives, the envious paws of strutting organs that sought her for themselves. What the heart wants, when the liver needs, her beauty and my kidneys tangled, tussled up, cries of triumphant oratory for down strokes that reach further than vocabulary allows, vying for her attention, detained by my intent. Everything is in her, and everything that she exudes raises the stakes and cuts through the drift that my thoughts float on, my impulse finds itself in a maze with courage and it’s stomach locked out with fear of what awaits above the trenches, outside of first and second skin, the surgical dissection of my emotions turn from blood to the colour purple, and my hand reaches out again to be met with indifference and a smile worn back to front, five minds before she stood infront of me without a face, to be written into existence and drawn with experience, who she never was, to be, yet to be, lost loved, a travelling mystery through time on the grand tour of life, her hair long as eternity with strands swept off her head by the wind onto her shoulders, and further up to the ground beneath my clay feet of hope that she would find my unwritten face, and tell my fast, tense and determined future in her sight….

Point To The Blank

Barbed wired thoughts flash by brawling eyes, lashed out of corners where peripheral visions can’t square. Looking at you watching me out of the window of your curiosity, didn’t change my perception of us. How strange it is to be unfamiliar in full view of the fixed gaze that found you on the doorstep of my desperation. I couldn’t let you in without letting me out. The fear holds the key, and yet you are the lock that masters the men of big ideas in persecuted ink. Pages worn as they are written,
hung as they are drawn turn to resentment on crowned heads, brow beaten, broken tongue, lick shot of truth slivers out, the saliva trail from mouth to mouth, resuscitates the hopeful bird of song you were, refined in denial, relief in the miles of love lost in an unkissed moment. A subliminal crime of passion parades on the front cover of your second face, a masked conceit blinds like the light of darkness, when the shades that hid your cool, collide into your assurance, slide the glint out of its tinted lens, into the haze, the fog, the drift, the cold of London and the inevitable. Change the key. Or break the lock.

Look At Me

Blacked out in blessed blue, dressed up in second skin, determined numbers add up your faults and fears in a crowd of….
Contagious tongues tango on terror with detached cool, running through your fiction to find buried assumptions and tricks intertwined with salicious tales grown on trees watered down with tears on the….
I’m not your happiness. I’m not your misery. I’m not your journey. I’m not your destination. I’m not your story. I’m not your resolution. I’m not your reflection. I’m not your chronology. I’m just your friend. I’m just your brother. I’m just your father. I’m just your lover. I’m just your betrayer. I’m just your jailer, imprisoned by your perception. I’m just your lies told by the words I didn’t speak while you banged your pretty head against a Marble wall of make believe. Lies your desires  lean against, buffered up without the butter, it ain’t so easy to slide inside, but you squeeze through the blood vessels of my conscience, when I let you touch me where it hurts. You know where it hurts. Don’t you dare soothe me away with the sweetness of a kiss when im bitter off the stuff you stir up at a distance. Out of mind, still on sight, and inside my time. Shorter nights draw lots with aspersions, blame the day for the length of your disillusionment, when I’m long gone, we only stray off the edge of reason, when it’s reasonable to take the edge off, the stray light bends our vision backwards and forwards, fallen, foreign gesture, frowned upon, bearer of all the love you can’t handle, dripping, soaking wet love, soured but salted, peppered and roasted, marinated with blood, guts and herbs, boiled up to the match  point and still cooking, on your own, still living on your grey and inglorious feet, stoned on stones, lifted out of jitters, jilted out of laughter that assures contentment, yet love remains the contender that endures the wrath of well endowed fear and justifiable self destruction opposed by the hand that holds yours as tightly as your existence grips my heart.

Climb Me

Climb me and picture a thousand words. Faces as finite as foot notes greet sure footed hands on deck. Climb me forwards. Eyes behind blinds will chase down dreams on stumbling blocks. Climb us with caution to cause commotion like curses at high altitude. It never ends. It always begins. 20151109_182427-1

At The Fiddlers

Nights of dreams unhinged, thoughts untamed, possibilities without word count unleashed on the unsuspecting and their expectations, travelling miles of wonder on the band stand or at a table where laughter cuddles up with sullen faces. And we exhaled.

Charge a man for what he has yet to see. Try a man for all he hoped to be. But don’t despise the girl at the edge of her seat, when she runs her hand through her hair and catches the light of your fixation. White faces filled with the black ink of reality can’t afford to hunt with bare eyes. Open up a trust fund daddy dearest of hugs and kisses to bruise cheeks with tenderness, and learn how to live on the compliment of silent gestures. And we prevailed.
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And at the bar a Loonat gambles her heart away with the fiance close by, watching hawk like, careful lady, be good, careful as you play in full sight, watch the men that delight in you, skip past the lies into your vacant soul, but he watches, and like Time, learns the proximity of her hope, drives his hands into hers, and closes the door behind you. And we sighed with relief.

Once In A Blue Moon

Once in a Blue Moon
She turns around your whirlwind frown
and sits beside your lonesome guile,
whistling down the wind.
She blew down houses to get to you-
to get you to notice her.
She dressed her hair to grace your smile.
She buttoned you up to undress your fear (with warmth)
You climbed her kisses beyond burnt bridges,
and crumbling walls.
Your world was ruined, but you escaped into her embrace.
And time forgot to forget you for alltime.
Once in a Blue Moon
She reminds you to remember.

Care Free

Napoleon at age 8 or 9

There you were. Before they got to you with big words like Love and Sex, with games of seduction and rules of attraction. Not content to contend with the charade of maturity, you learnt to wear a mask too tight and simultaneously loose around the questions that grew too wide for your infinite imagination. Careful to not be careless without a care in the world that’s not care free. There you were, and so was I.

Bathe Away

Bathe away. Babe in arms. Let it go. Down that stream of consciousness. Tired eyes swim through it. Bathe away in the filthy water made of sweat and fear and frustrated sex, discontinued when we touch it where it hurts. Bathe away, bubbles blown apart, the morning starts before you sleep with naked hope that you wake up in the wet of dreams. There you are, turning, stirring the pot, making it rain, running that river down the rocky path. No way baby, out of this. We lay it all down in that holy place. That water takes us in the middle of our struggle. That dirty water, fucking us into submission. Liar. Take us with you. Take us down, all the way baby. Spread it wide. There, there. There she is. There you are. And inside of you, find my love in the multitude that race to erase you from memory.

Mr Marshall

They say you’ve died. They say we won’t see you humming your tune and waking the smile out of frowns behind counters anymore. Yeah those ladies loved your sunny disposition, long behind a counterfeited expiration date, or maybe you just couldn’t wait to escape the pain that was eating you alive. But I don’t know if its true. I still see your face in the presence of my mind. I still hear your accented voice. The cheer in it. The life thriving in the tone of its warm Island sound, that rises to catch the transient express of fleeting daylight joy. And I have yet to shed a tear. It would not cost much more than a moment, but I’m saving it for your absence in the days to come, when they say that you are alive, in the memory of those that remember you as you were. Not as you could have been. A man. A friend. A father for better or worse. A giver. An optimist with a melody in hand. To me, a symbol and a stranger, but oddly enough, more familiar than the faces that I have made a closer examination of. And if you are dead, the misery of the agony that came to know you so well, will be the first to abandon your Temple for another sucker of the breast milk of life. Not for the love of company. Like hate it feeds on dark necessity. Pain does not like to sleep alone, but its a selfish lover, that commits to keep you a prisoner without pleasure. And where the pain excites the life it throttles to submission, we can only hope that your heart did not surrender without a struggle before you exhaled your love. Your last breath in exaltation. Your first words in…..

I Can’t Find Your Name

Paved in stone. Engraved. Embalmed. Footsteps trespass. Distress wont get it tonight. Blame the vain in you and your two headed horror of an attitude, lives beside lonely in the multiverse with mistress mirror tacked on. 

Tacky tactics with tactile execution, she blew me a kiss before I watched her die inside her laughter. A barbed wire mystery dressed to tease, concealed her pain with red lipstick, cuckold the prick of needles let loose on the needy old cock that crowed when she played her finest trick (you fell for it too).

Two whores in a harlot system governed by well dressed fear barely making it past the Pavilion cafe on stilts, throw curve balls when gun play is headed their way. And only one sees it. Swinging hard on her wave length he reaches out a hand to gently persuade tears out of her eyes. And she wonders who’s zooming who. 
Trespassing footsteps embalmed with the ointment of sorrows, loaned for a lifetime or a lunch hour, unforgiven by the debtor of dubious deeds who engraves tombstones of the soon to be forgotten and your name, not your handle on the matter at hand when light bends the truth. And love might yet find it.